Not much to say, but i thought i'd feed the fishes a little. i've been working hard lately i guess. it would explain the absences. Just trying to do my best to keep food in my belly and a smile on my face or some shit like that right? At least the dude's alright.

All this was supposed to be a fucking surprise. Damn it.


it can't rain all the time. Do you remember that babe? i'm still here if you need me, i'm just working myself into the dust.

i hope that everyone had a great holiday. Mine was fantastic, just as predicted. Not to much going on other than that, just hanging chillin with the best guys you'll never meet, and working on side projects and work. Great stuff if i do say so myself. And believe me, i do.

Hey, J, you still alive? Don't make me a liar man.

i want to play boggle. i don't know what the hell happened to me that i love this game. J won't play with me though because he's a dick.

i guess i'll stay out of everything else. The drink doesn't satisfy if you know what i'm saying.

So a little bug (T) told me that some things from last night may still be on your mind.

So, here i am to just talk i guess. i'm not mad at you. i was a bit last night, but in my defense i was tired and maybe a bit jealous but that was my own fault. i asked the question that i already knew the answer to but didn't want to know, so babe i'm sorry. But so what if i don't approve of who you're with, if he makes you happy then by all means you can be happy. That's all i ever want for you babe. You know i'm not really a part of this situation, i'm not really in the know. i just do as i'm told right? (the daddy pants go on one leg a time babe, you know that :D)


So, i guess this is my apology? i didn't mean to upset you if i did, and i'm not upset with you now, so there. :P

Even though it's not anything comparible (comparable) to N's green fairy and what i guess happened there, i'm feeling happy enough.

it's late. No it's early. i guess things are a little fucked up. Fun as hell though. Back and forth back and forth.

None of this makes any sense. i'm a little out of my wits at the moment. Tired, but doing fine.

it doesn't make you gay, it makes you sentimental. (which kind of makes me gay)

"Please don't go, I want you to stay
I'm begging you please, please don't leave here."


This is killing me man.

Don't take allergy medication with alcohol. it's not a good idea trust me.

Have you ever known anyone who went out on a cigarette run and got distracted for four fucking hours? How do you even do that?

My babe got me addicted to the song illusion by VNV nation. THANKS BABE.

My head feels heavy. Almost like it would roll off my shoulders if i let it.

"Well, i do like monkeys so that's true."


i got half a mind and half a bottle still. You want some come get some. This shit will fuck you up.

i said i'd update for you so here it is.

i want pizza.


i can't think of much else to say. J he's back i guess. i wish he would stick around. i really miss him. it's kind of lonely with out him. i had a best friend and then all of a sudden i didn't. it's been what 2 months? i'm still not over it i guess.


Ah blow this shit up.


i think we should have a party some time soon. i'll bring the beer.

Stress is a killer in'it? i'm sorry to all you guys that have to deal with it. i'm off for a bit, it's play time now. i gotta tell ya though work will me missed. A few more months though and then it'll all be okay again.

Someone want to see Superbad with me?



i love ya babe. i want to see you smile. i bet you don't even know how much. i don't like when you're sad.

Ah i sound like a pussy. if Jman could see me now he'd say so right off.

Jman i know you'll probably never see this, but fuck man i miss you.



i'm a faggot.

Fuck bed times! Fuck any time that you're supposed to be asleep but your brain won't shut off.


Hey kid, thanks for keeping me company. Sorry you can't sleep either.















Pooface, ship up or ship out. You'll get your balls back someday.

i'm tired as fuck. thankfully not hung over. But tired still.

French toast is a nice thing to wake up to.

Jman's a nice thing to wake up to too. i'm glad that life is good again. i still don't understand. i don't know if i ever will. it doesn't matter now though i guess.

So Jman, it was okay that i had to replace you as a partner. i could understand that. But i never thought that i would have to replace you as a friend. You were a great artist, you were good at what you did. But you fucking duped me man. You really had me believing that you were a good friend. As close as we fucking were, i didn't expect this.

Fuck you man. Enjoy your new life.

i can't put things behind a link, i don't remember how to, so if this fucks up your life by putting too much on your friends page, then deal with it. This message is for everyone but my babe. You. can tell me what to do if you want.

if you're needing a reason
to keep on going strong
look no further than that front door.

you got the world ahead of you
it's staring you in the face
show your teeth and push it outta the way.

if you're needing a reason
to take that very next step
look no further (look no further)
if you're needing a reason

yeah this world
it's got claws, and it wants to hold you down
but show your teeth and push it outta the way.
teach that fucker who's boss.

hey i said if you need a reason
look no further.
take the world in your hands
and look no further.



i'm sorry babe. i'm a bit rusty on the writing. Sometime i'll play it for you, once i transfer it out of my head. i love you.

You know what blows? Waking up one day and realizing that all the shit that you want to do, all this work that you're doing because you love it, because it's your passion, is taking huge fucking chunks out of your wallet. i can't picture my life any different. But damn some extra cash flow would fucking kick ass at the moment.

J man, you were beyond wasted last night. fucking kick ass man.


daddy's got a life to lead now. shitson.

fuck it i'm in for the night.

Update under a gun? Or a pointed finger? Perhaps a Banana in a pocket?

I'm bored. I've not had much free time lately. It's been on the go on the go on the go lately. But I'm home today, and I'm bored. Damn.

Fucking hell. I'm a bit hung over. Not too bad though. Maybe I'll go bother the fuck out of J man.

What to do today? I'm at a loss.


Hey babe. How's that work thing going for you?

You kids crack me the fuck up.

you all talk to much. hahahaha. well i suppose it's my fault for not being on in a month.


look! twice in one day! i'm almost as bad as tosh! hahahahaHAHAHA

So J and i went out today, and did that thing where we're not blathering alcoholics. All for you babe. Well maybe not just for you, for our livers too right? hahaha.

There's still a bottle of "happiness and sunshine" cooling in the fridgidaire. T would be jealous, he loves this shit.

i will blatantly admit right here and now that i loved the movie "night at the museam". Fuck you J, Ben Stiller is funny, and i like monkeys.

i'm missing some attention. well maybe not lacking in it, but i want more gadamnit!

i still have sex drive, but maybe my uh... head is taking over for a bit, i'm really up for anything at the moment, even if that is just hanging out and watching movies, or driving around until something awesome hits me in the face.

friday, is going to be a good day. i can feel it. in my bones. MY BONES I TELL YOU! Fuck yes, who is excited? Frankie is excited that's fucking who!

ga'damn!